sexy back!! day 7 & 8

i bet y'all thought i was slacking again, huh? well, i have been slacking... on the blog, NOT on the workouts. rather than doing two  separate posts and spamming facebook with my damn links, i decided to do it this way. 

yesterday was my day for running. the roads aren't clear yet, and there is still a lot of snow and ice, so it was off to the death machine commonly known as a treadmill. BUT, yesterday was also the first day i had been called into work since i started this new program. all day, it was in the back of my head, worrying that i would be too tired and demotivated after sitting at a desk all day dealing with assholes who expect me to know everything, and their cunty remarks and bullshit to even think about running. i kept thinking about all those otherr times i started a program this year, only for it to be disrupted by stupid shit and work. but the more i thought about it, the more stupid that fear seemed. the only thing that actually ever stopped me from working out all those times {aside from the broken ankle} was myself. i would make excuses {i.e. "not enough hours in the day" blah blah fucking blah}, and i would get off track for a week, or even a month. fuck that shit. not to mention the fact that the office where i work is the same building that the free gym is in, and all i would have to do is bring some spare clothes and my sneakers. 


so off i went, as soon as work was over. my little brother came with me, just to check out the gym, but he didn't want to work out until BF had gone down {at that point BF was waiting for me to come home so he could work out}. i did my run, and we got a lift home with a friend. BF was royally PISSED at me for not telling him i was going to be late, but i didn't see why. whenever HE goes anywhere, he never tells me when he's coming back, and if he's late, i don't freak out at him. not to mention that it was 20 fucking minutes. big fucking deal. anyway, he was all cunty and left in a huff. but once he worked out, and talked to the boys that were down at the gym {apparently they were shocked at my 'intensity' and impressed with my running. wtf?}, he must have had a change of heart. so by the time he came home, he was being nice again, and maybe a little apologetic. at least as much as he is capable of, of course, i was {and still am} more than a little pissy about it. i'm not one to hold grudges, but this time i felt like he was wrong to be angry. i need to work out too, and he is not taking into consideration my goals at all. 

anyway, on to today. today was one of those days that, in the past, i would NEVER EVER have managed to get a workout in at all. hell, i wouldn't have  even considered it as a possibility. i not only went to work, but i also managed to get paid early {tomorrow is when i was supposed to get paid} and of course, i had to go grocery shopping. add onto that some visiting in-laws with a new baby in tow, and it's pretty much a miracle or a divine intervention of sorts. by the time i got home from shopping it was 7pm, and i hadn't eaten since mid-morning. it was not a pretty sight. as soon as all of the groceries were packed away, i had something to eat and some coffee. about 35 minutes later, i banished BF to the bedroom with strict orders to remain in there AT ALL COSTS {i don't like working out in front of him unless he's teaching me something. i'm just weird like that}, and got shit done. today i did the ab workout from oxygen, and also the oxygen circuit. it went pretty great, and i got a good sweat on. the only thing that kind of bugged me was that i think i need a little heavier of a weight. Bf is going to figure something out for me by next tuesday {next time doing the circuit}, since all the other weights here are too heavy for me. 

right now, i feel pretty damn good. well other than the residual pissy-ness i feel towards BF for the aforementioned incidence of asshattery, but i've gotta let that go. i want him to take me seriously, i want him to be proud of me and to see that i am really accomplishing a lot with this {well, a lot more than i ever thought i could}... but the bottom line is, I'M NOT DOING THIS FOR HIM, and i'd do well to remember that. i'm doing this for ME. i want to be proud of myself. i shouldn't need validation, approval, or anything from him or anyone else. i just have to keep my head up, keep powering through, and digging deeper. i got this. i can do this shit. no fucking problem.


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sexy back!! day 5

ugh. today? yeah, it's one of those days. i did good, i worked out, i even added on 15 minutes of ab work to the oxygen circuit.. but i still feel BLAH. not just now, but ALL DAY. when i tell BF i know exactly what he's going to say: "you're overtraining."


on the bright side, i woke up this morning free of any knee pain. when i talked to BF about it last night and described where it was and whatnot, he wasn't too concerned anyway. BUT, because of the "overtraining" mentioned above, he said that i should either take tomorrow off completely, or at least do something easier than insanity. hummpphhh. ok, i know i DID ask him to help me with this, and to give me advice and motivation {which he is great at!}, but every time he tells me, "you've gotta take it easy," or "take a day off, it won't kill you!!", all it does is make me want to work out more. but overtraining syndrome is a real, honest to god, actual THING... so i have to consider this very carefully. the symptoms are as follows:

• persistent muscle soreness
• elevated resting heart rate
• increased susceptibility to infection
• increased incidence of injuries
• irritability
• depression
• loss of motivation
• insomnia
• decreased appetite
• weight loss

notice i highlighted in red the ones that i have so far. but my question is, how much of these symptoms can be chalked up to me being premenstrual and hormonal? pretty much all of it, except for the elevated heart rate. i'm not very sore at all {but maybe i will be later, with the addition i made to the circuit}, and i have absolutely no trouble sleeping. at this point, i'm not sure how to proceed. if i still feel like this tomorrow, i think i will just do the circuit again, rather than insanity. if i feel better, full steam ahead with that sexy bit of man meat also known as shawn t!! BUT, if i feel worse, i am not doing FUCK ALL. i think maybe this overtrained feeling might even have something to do with my lack of rest and recovery on my day off. i never did get to relax at all that day, and i don't think i sat down for more than 2 minutes at a time for the whole day. oh well. next time it's time for rest and recovery, i'm locking the doors and closing the curtains and getting my goddamned rest and recovery!! or at least as much of it as #3 will allow.

anywho, enough of my bitching. today as a warmup, i did a 15 minute ab workout i found in last september's issue of oxygen. even though it was only 2 sets of 5 different moves, it was fucking nuts. yep, i am going to feel that shit tomorrow, and probably even tonight!! i wanted to post pics and descriptions like i did for the oxygen circuit, but i can't for the life of me find pics for all of these moves online, and i'm not too keen on typing out the instructions. what i will tell you, is that it was some intense shit.. at least for me, with my poor weakened, and stretched out by pregnancy abdominal muscles.

anywho, after a minute break or so, i jumped right into the oxygen circuit. strangely, it seemed more difficult today. overtrained? maybe. not adjusted to the new ab addition? i hope it's just that. i was able to finish it without any trouble, but i just wasn't feeling the "pump". i'm glad i got it over with, but that's not the feeling i want to have: that a work out is something to just "get over with."

oh well. bitching doesn't help. 

i feel like i really need some rest, so i'm waiting for the little one to take her nap {pray for me!!} so i can hop into the shower and have a little snooze myself. the boys are content with their games, and i suppose an hour of games on march break will NOT kill them, especially if it enables me to be a more happy, rested, and mostly sane mom.

tomorrow? well, it just depends how i feel. while i don't want to miss a workout AT ALL, i want an injury even less. before i go, could someone out there please pray that this child will take her nap? please? i don't care who or what you pray to, every little bit of help counts! mommy needs naptime!!